Week 13,14&15 Like Mountain

Happy New Years! to everyone.

It has been 3 weeks already without posting my blog, and I am amazed how fast time goes on without noticing it….

This week, I would like to talk about growth. Please read till the end, as some paragraphs contains some negative thoughts and words, but it will turn into positive by the end of this blog, I promise. My idea of this writing is to send positive energy to readers who visit my blog, not the negativity.

I have been experiencing a very challenging situation that happened just before 2017 began. This unexpected event shocked me, and made me extremely angry for its unfairness, and for the corrupted system. Anyway, after my anger is gone, it made me very sad because there was no justice with it, and nothing I could do about it.

This incident made me continuously failing from my  mental diet.  And still sometimes, when I am talking and explaining about it to my friends or family, it does affect me with negative thoughts and feelings by remembering about it.

Master Key and Growth

We have been learning about growth from Master Key readings, and personally, particularly in the past few weeks, I have been thinking about growth.

From the readings of Master key week 15, #7 it says,

All conditions and experiences that come to us do so for our benefit. Difficulties and obstacles will continue to come until we absorb their wisdom and gather from them the essentials of further growth.”

From the beginning of Mastermind course, I have been experiencing and manifesting mostly positive changes so far. I have been feeling wonderful that I was becoming a “new me”. And right now, I strongly feel that there is a need for me to grow further.

In addition to #7, #3 explains:

Difficulties, inharmonies, and obstacles, indicate that we are either refusing to give out what we no longer need, or refusing to accept what we require.”

It was sad it happened, but by understanding of #3, I take this as an opportunity for me to grow. And I appreciate for that it happened. It is really indicating something about me. Either ‘not giving out’, or ‘refusing to accept’. I do not know exactly what, but only I know is that NOW is the time for me to let that happen.

I am glad that I became to be able to see the things in this way. I could have still be upset about it and surround myself with negativity, if I weren’t understanding the Mastermind.

I truly believe obstacles and challenges will come in our way with purpose, and each time, we need to welcome it as it is a chance to grow. I do think that every time we grow and manifest our purposes, we will encounter another chance to grow (=difficulties/challenges), again, to grow into the next level.

So, obstacles are very important part of our process. We are lucky to have that opportunities to guide us, leading us to grow further.

I am here for a purpose and that purpose is to grow into a mountain, not to shrink to a grain of sand” – Og Mandino.

I am growing into a mountain, and we all are.

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P.S. The photo of the mountain I took from my friend’s apartment last year. One of my favourite mountain on earth.

Week 11 & 12 – and Happy

“The only way to keep from going backward is to keep going forward. Eternal vigilance is the price of success. There are three steps, and each one is absolutely essential. You must first have the knowledge of your power; second, the courage to dare; third, the faith to do.”

Week 12 is my favorite week so far. I feel that I am moving forward and forward.

I was not able to blog and attend webinar last week. Not making an excuse but I was in a very countryside where there is no sufficient internet access for about a week, so I fell a bit behind with blogging and watching webinar and some of the exercises.

I just got back to my home and was feeling not great, because I was so behind with many things of MKMMA exercises. However, the quotation above was telling me that I just must keep going forward no matter how far I am falling behind. So the next day, I watched webinar replay, did the 50 minutes one sentence DMP in front of the mirror, and made 50 cards.

And I thought my “Do it now” is becoming a habit. That is a great achievement.

The Great Reminder

I really enjoyed making 50 cards with achievements or qualities I have, and reading it few times a day. It works amazingly with me. It reminds me of greatness within me, and feel great about what I have achieved. In fact, there are so many things that I have achieved that I totally forgot about.

About 6 months ago, when I first landed this unknown country, I struggled a lot with my self-esteem, because I do not speak that language well, I cannot work as a nurse, I have to be depend on my partner for finance, and on and on. My mind was going crazy and trapped in the spiral of negative thoughts as if I have done nothing in my life.

With this mental struggle, I joined the MKMMA. I cannot emphasize enough how this course impacted to my mind and life, from a complete negative mind to a NO negative mind forced by mental diet, Og Mandino exercise, daily readings, DMP, affirmations and this achievement cards…

It is just incredible. Especially these 50 cards, it is very simple exercise but it reinforces and reminds me of positive aspects of myself that I tend to forget easily. It is surprisingly easy to trap to the negativity, but so difficult to maintain the positivity.

I cannot remember where I read this, but it says that “I have to lose everything to build something new”.

Right now, I can honestly say that it was one of the best thing that I lost everything through this journey, because it brought me to learn something so incredible like this.

“I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and HAPPY.”

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P.S. I took this picture in a temple of Cambodia in 2011. The tree was the most confident tree I have ever seen. Very powerful.

Week 10 – Magic Application

Knowledge will not apply itself. You must make the application. Abundance will not come to you out of the sky, neither will it drop into your lap, but a conscious realization of the law of attractions and the intention to bring it into operation for a certain, definite and specific purpose, and the will to carry out this purpose will bring about the materialization for your desire by a natural law of transference.”

In my life, I cannot count how much ‘applications’ I did not make for my knowledge, thus I might have missed a great opportunity which I could have taken.  Well, I cannot change the past right now, but certainly I can change the future from now on, by applying the leanings I learnt in the past.

So, I promise to make an application for the great knowledge I have, from now on.

I have learnt many things so far from Mastermind Alliance such as power of affirmations, habits, mental diet, sits, and various laws. Those amazing knowledge that helps me to transform my life beautifully, I cannot afford to waste it because I did not apply it.  I MUST make applications to it because I want to welcome to meet ‘what I will to be’, soon.

From 1st of December we started to read Scroll 3 of the Greatest Salesman in the World by Og Mandino. I really enjoy this new Scroll because it wakes me up with good vitality, every morning. The Scroll itself is like an affirmation to me and it gives me a full of motivation and enthusiasm every time I read it.

“I will persist until I succeed.”

What a strong, courageous message. It is strange but this very short, one sentence makes me so emotional somehow.

Okay, so how do I make an application?

Answer: My affirmations are the magic spells for my dreams!

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Week 9 – Realization

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“The positive thought will destroy the negative as certainly as light destroys darkness, and the results will be just as effectual. “ – The Master Key Part Nine.

Every week I learn something new from the Mastermind experience. It brings me new insight and amazes me with how quickly, but certainly make a difference in my life.

I never thought that an affirmation can be so powerful before.  I have tried many times but it never brought me any change.  But I realized now that I wasn’t doing it correctly. From last week, I learnt that we cannot expect to bring about beautiful, strong and harmonious conditions to be manifest by only 10 minutes of strong, positive thoughts. No wonder it never worked for me, as it is so true that my strong, positive affirmation was only about 10 minutes a day, probably.

I found that the mental diet is the most important foundation of mental work. It is so true that if I cannot relax my mind, I cannot feel the truth. If I cannot eliminate negative thoughts from my mind, beautiful positive thoughts cannot come into my mind. If I cannot control my thoughts, I cannot control my life, thus, my desires cannot be manifest into physical world.

The Master Key 9: 27 says that we cannot keep the evil thoughts from coming, but we can forget them and replace with the ready-made affirmation, rather than entertaining the evil thoughts

“Affirm the good and the bad will vanish. “

This week I was consciously using the affirmation, “I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy.”  Especially, with the mental diet. And I already felt tremendous difference in my inside world. It made my mind clear and more focused. And it is true that negative thoughts vanish by it. In addition, I think my physical energy level increased by it too. So, it finally proved me that affirmation really works.

I am so grateful that many things are making sense to me now. And I feel that finally things are connecting to each other.

The Power within me is about to manifest.

Week 8 – Beautiful Inside

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“You cannot entertain weak, harmful, negative thoughts ten hours a day and expect to bring about beautiful, strong and harmonious conditions by ten minutes of strong, positive, creative thought” – The Master Key Part Eight

From the reading of week 8, this message woke me up as if it gave me a big slap in my face. I felt like a little shock, because the message was very true. I felt it as if it was a personal message for me from someone.

Straight away I thought of why the Mental Diet is so important. And this made me to take it even more seriously. Not to have a negative thought takes a lot of focus and conscious selections in the mind. I found that every morning before I start a day, I had to consciously firm and make myself into a state of ‘training’ almost, and throughout a day, constantly monitor my thoughts and mood selection. There were times that I was about to lose my patience and break into anger, but I was successfully ‘bite my tongue’ (read below) and switched my thought into something else, and let go of the anger. Well, that moment I failed the Mental Diet because I had the thought of anger. But, at least I could redirect my thought before it comes out from my mouth, because that makes me even more angry. And that action produces more negative thoughts. So, I want to say this is a good progress and that I was able to substitute it.

In addition, this week, I see more links between the various exercises we do. Some messages from the readings encourage and assist me to go through a day with my Metal Diet. I am sure everyone has their own things, but here I want to share the messages from the readings we do, that support and motivate me, and remind me why I am doing the Mental Diet.

“Never I scratch for excuse to gossip. When I am tempted to criticize, I bite on my tongue” – Og Mandino.

I remember this message to redirect my thoughts when negative thought is about to come up.

“I will eliminate hatred, envy, jealousy, selfishness, and cynicism, by developing love for all humanity, because I know that a negative attitude toward others can never bring me success.” – Blueprint Builder #5.

“I cannot be healthy; I cannot be happy; I cannot be prosperous; if I have a bad disposition. If I am sulky, or surly, or cynical, or depressed, or superior, or frightened half out of my wits, my life cannot possibly be worth living.” – Emmet Fox.

I do my readings in the morning so that I can start a day with firm commitment and mental readiness for the Mental Diet.

Everyday is a good day to make beautiful inside.

Week 7 – Who is Responsible?

First of all I want to say that in week 7, I was very unwell and spent 3 days in the bed. This made me realize how grateful to be free from ill and pain. The state of being healthy is too easily taken for granted.

Today, I must say I am grateful to be free from my physical pain. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

This week, I started the mental diet as instructed by Emmet Fox’s The Seven Day Mental Diet.  For this, I started to consciously and carefully analyze every thought I have. The ‘No Opinions’ exercise from the previous weeks was already very hard to do, but this one, “Totally no negative thoughts” is unimaginably difficult. Somehow, probably because I am more conscious about negative thoughts, I feel more negative thoughts inside of me than usual. And probably I was constantly thinking about it, in my reality, there was a lot of  things that make me feel some sort of negative thought more than usual – being physical ill was one of them.

As I was reading the The Seven Day Mental Diet by Emmet Fox, I realized one thing about me. I am an extreme travel lover and I have been living nomadically, moving city to city, country to country for last 10 years. I have been doing this because I am constantly seeking of excitements and satisfaction with my life. This was great for first few years, but one day I thought of how long will I continue doing this? Yet I am still unable to find anything – of course, I do not really know what exactly I am looking for. Meanwhile, I developed a habit of thought that nothing can give me excitement and satisfaction unless I move to a new place. I realized that this is because I am completely relying my mood and feelings on my surrounding environment. In my blueprint, there is a believe that “The environment is governing my happiness” and I always thought like “If I move to ___ (place or country), my life will be great and I will be happier.” In fact, I also blame on “the environment” for my feeling of unhappiness and dissatisfaction. And I was changing the place to another to find my “new happiness”. But the truth is, this believe does not take me anywhere to find my real happiness. The environment does not give me happiness, it only helps me to change the direction of my mind-set for a while. And the most importantly, I realized that my happiness or unhappiness is not because of the environment. It is because of my mood and thoughts that I choose to have.

Yes, I was the responsible person.

I was more reflecting my life this week, so I do admit I have not been successful with this Seven Day Mental Diet so far. It is truly the most difficult things I ever tried. However, I truly believe that this mental mastering is really the supreme key of life.

“I must train myself to choose the subject of my thinking at any given time, and also to choose the emotional tone, or what we call the mood that colors is. Yes, I can choose my moods. Indeed, If I could not I would have no real control over my life at all.” – Emmet Fox.

Yes, I can do this. And I do this until I succeed.

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Week 6: The Most Important Friend

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She’s the gal to please, never mind all the rest. For she’s with you clear up to the end. And you’ve passed your most dangerous, difficult test if the gal in the glass is your friend.” –  By Dale Wimbrow

I really enjoy reading this poem of “The Gal in the Glass” by Dale Wimbrow.

Few years ago, I was doing something that I was forced to do by the circumstance I had at that time. I was trying very hard to convince myself to believe this is “the right things” to do, so that I can feel good about it. But in truth, I never felt it was the right thing.  In my deep inside, I actually knew that was never for me, but I did not have courage to be honest to myself, and get out from that situation.

This situation continued about 10 months before I was finally able to leave from it. And from this 10 months, I accumulated a huge amount of feelings of guilt in my mind, by not being honest to myself. Interestingly, I had many health issues during this period. It was very strange as I am generally a very healthy person, and I had no health issue before then. I do think it was an expression of inside world manifested to outside, but in a negative way. My body was trying to tell me that something is not right….

My point is, I was not a good friend with “the gal” at that time. I probably made many people happy by doing what I was doing, but “the gal” was never happy. She knew that it was not for her. And I was cheating “the gal” for a long time knowing her was not happy.

I took a first step to be a better friend with “the gal” when I left from it. And I promised to her I will never be dishonest to her again. The feelings of guilt taught me how important to be honest with “the gal”, and how not important to please someone else in order to be happy and accepting who I am.

If we want to spread our love to the world, first of all, we all must love ourselves and accept who we are. When we truly love ourselves, then we are able to give love to others. Because we cannot give something if we do not have it for ourselves. So I love “the gal” and I am a very good friend with her.

Never will I allow my heart to become small and bitter, rather I will share it and ir will grow and warm the earth.” – Og Mandino

Week 5 – Mental Freedom

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No Opinion.

I did not know how difficult it would be to not to give opinion. This week, for the first time I realized that I am very opinionated person. Until this point, I was thinking that I am a non-judgmental person, but I do admit I was not really!

This week we are asked to not to give any opinion, and to be a good observer. Surprisingly opinions are everywhere in normal daily conversations, thoughts, feelings, and actions. It was very interesting experience to be aware of how much opinions come up to my mind and from my mouth.

Every time any opinion comes up to my mind, I consciously told myself “ok, this is opinion” and just let go of the thoughts, and carry on. When I am talking to someone and I am about to give some opinions, I also did the same, and told myself “yes, this is opinion too” and swallowed my thoughts and shut my mouth. I consciously did this since Sunday. I cannot count how many times I did this in each day.

I thought this is like a mental house cleaning. I noticed that I had full of rubbish in my mental house, especially negative thoughts such as criticism. I learned from previous few weeks about inside world and outside world, so I want to keep my metal house free from these negative ones that do not serve me.

After few days, I also noticed that since I stop giving opinions, it gave me a sense of  liberation in the mind, and I felt I was at the state of peace and lightness, and I see more beautiful things in the outside. The effect of negative opinions were somewhat making my mind and the rest of body, tight and heavier.

I make this “No opinion – be good observer “ to be part of my good habit. This exercise certainly brought me a different insight about me which I did not know it exist.

Everyday I learn something new. And all the new learning brings me a step forward to my success.

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Week 4 – Inside world expression

It has been already a month since I committed to do this wonderful Master Key Mastermind Alliance course. Today, I can say that it has already made me a big change in my inside world.

A month ago, I was completely slave of my bad habits, the habits that I built over my frustration adjusting to this new country and new lifestyle. It started gradually but very quickly, my mind was full of dislikes and complaints. It was surprisingly easy to catch a bad habit, and I became its slave even though I knew that complaining do not make me happier, but I could not stop the waves of hates that keep coming in my mind. And I just keep losing my confident as a person.

Just a week before this Pay-it-forward scholarship course starts, my dear friend, who I have not seen for years, messaged me and asked how I am coping with the new life. It got me very emotional as I realized that I am becoming someone that I did not want to become, and loosing who I am. Then she told me about this course (She is also taking this course), I did not have second thoughts to sign up for it because I was devastatingly wanting to make a change in me.

This became a breaking of point of my bad habits.

From the week 4 Lesson, it says “These mental activities pertain to the world within, to the world of cause; and conditions and circumstances which result are the effect. It is thus that you become a creator. This is important work, and the higher, loftier, grander and more noble ideals which you can conceive, the more important the work will become.”

Making DMP and reading it every day along with other affirmations, certainly made some change in my mind thus my inside world. And I can feel that it started to express in the outside world too. One of my DMP is to have higher education by doing Master’s degree, and I wanted to start from February 2017. Doing master degree seemed impossible for me due to my current financial and other life situations.

However, I would love to share this amazing news, that just this week, I was offered from the University that I wish to go, with a massive financial support that covers most of the fees, so that I can afford. And believe me or not, I will be starting February 2017,  just like I said in my DMP!!!! I am so surprised but very happy and grateful for this opportunity. And I am very glad to make a first step to achieve my definite major purpose.

The power of mind is incredible. INCREDIBLE.

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Week 3 – Clarity

The Purpose

Accuracy in building words and sentences is the highest form of architecture in civilization and is a passport to success.” – Mark Januszewski

After 3 weeks of making and editing my definite major purpose of my life with help of MKMMA’s certified staff, something has finally clicked inside of me and I understood what it really means.

The life cannot be satisfied without a purpose. Not knowing what I really want, isn’t taking me anywhere, or helping me to achieve anything. If I want to be really happy and to be satisfied with my life, knowing a clear and detailed purpose is crucial. Without this, nothing can be achieved because I, myself, do not even know what I really want in my life.

Writing for my definite major purpose was a very difficult task for me because I did not know what I “really” want for myself. However, this exercise definitely guided me through finding my burning desire from deep inside but it also taught me to have a clear intention for every action I make. I think we can have a purpose or aim in each day, it does not matter how small it is. And I believe it is very important in everyday life to have a purpose. Living with a daily purpose, it gives me sense of accomplishment, and I feel that the day was meaningful. And like Mark says in the webinar, celebrate the accomplishment. Acknowledging that I have done something, it gradually build self-confidence and gives me a moment to feel good about myself.

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From Master Key lesson part 3, it says; “When the Solar Plexus is in active operation and is radiating life, energy and vitality to every part of the body, and to every one whom he meets, the sensations are pleasant, the body is filled with health and all with whom he comes in contact experience a pleasant sensation.”

In the past, I have met some people, who shifted my life dramatically for the better. Sometime I think of them and thought that they have something in common. It is not their appearances or personalities are similar, but something, like a aura or almost like special vibes around them. They did not really do any actions for me to  shifted my life, by just be with me how they are, and I felt tremendous love and comfort, almost like a healing sensation from them. When I read this paragraph few days ago, it made a total sense to me, and I instantly thought of them – what they have was this radiant energy and vitality.

Everyday I learn something new. I am grateful for this learning experience.